♥You keep me going

hello world .
today went by extremely slow .
without her . & life sucks -.-

just did a quiz , was tagged by Germaine :o
21 names .

& everything's just about her .
seriously , just her will do .
& she isnt convinced that i like her :o
idk how to explain alr . i really dont .

i was told to remove the nick of mine i changed yesterday night .
though i jolly well know im not your boyf & shouldnt be using that nick .
i mean , its to tell myself i've chosen her & stick by her .
though she didnt say she wants , nor is she obliged to .
whether she likes me or not , thats another thing .
i changed it & was hoping she'd say something .
no .

she went offline in a snap :o
i was shattered , y'know .
though ya im your friend & you are mine .
you dont have to tell me anything you're doing .
its not your duty :o
but im extremely extremely sad aye .
y'dont know how much my heart hurts .
y'dont know how much you mean to me .
i dont even dare to sms you.
for fear i would irritate you with those messages .
but what else could i do ? :/
sighs after sighs .

i wont make it on my own .
i really need you .
please .